Can't Wait to Send the May Newsletter!
Without going into any detail, it seems like maybe things will be looking up for me soon? I hate to get excited about anything, because it's been so much rejection over the years. Like. So. Much. Jobs I was handed via text by current employees! Jobs where I'm actual friends with people on the board and they were my recommenders! Jobs at publications I've successfully, repeatedly freelanced for before! To be clear, I don't really count a rejection if I didn't even get an interview. Whatever. But if I got an interview, did an edit test, got multiple interviews and was still turned down?! If a company recruited me and then didn't hire me?! Just say you want me to keep battling depression, just say that then. Just say you hate me and I suck. Fine! YA MAW!
Anyway! Seriously I feel like I might be getting an email this week or next about a perfectly aligned opportunity that would make so much sense and fix everything that's wrong in my life, everything that's hurt me for so many years now. But. I just refuse to get excited. Someone who kinda has power over me told me the other day that I "shouldn't bet on getting a job."
My girl St. Therese gave me signs that all will work for my good, and I really do know that God makes no mistakes, but I'm human and ... yeah. So anyway if you're the praying type, please just ask Creole Jesus an'em to help put me in the right position. Because yes I want time to write my mom's book, that is the ultimate goal. But I get so stressed all the time about money. I need some stability. With stability and a job with normal hours, I can do it all. Finally. |